I want to tell you I'm sorry for turning up and ruining everything.
I'm sorry for falling in love with you,
And for telling you I had fallen in love with you,
And for acting like it and thinking about it endlessly and trying so hard to figure it all out.
I'm sorry for trying to push you away
Because I knew it would draw you closer.
I'm sorry I let you go back to her and acted like it didn't bother me when really, it broke my heart.
I'm sorry I let you lie to me and walk away from me,
And i'm really sorry that I let it hurt me the way it did.
I'm sorry that I tried so hard to hate you and so hard to find somebody else, anybody else.
I'm sorry that I didn't and that i'm becomming synical so young
And so vulnerable when I'm too old for such vulnerability.
I'm really sorry I can't just say this to you.
I'm sorry that everytime I see you, you dissapoint me.
I'm sorry that I'm leaving so soon,
And that I will probably never see you again.
I'm sorry that that makes me cry.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect and I led you astray and I can't speak your language and I'm not the person you want to be in love with,
I'm just really sorry.
I still love you,
Sorry.
Labels: Love Apologies